Hello! Welcome to my little self ship page. This page is for me to talk about my self ship, Magicshow! Tenna is my #1 f/o, and I absolutely adore him. Self shipping has become a very important part of my life and a wonderful coping mechanism for me. It's changed my life and gotten me through so much. I'm not a good writer whatsoever, but I'd like to share a little about why I love him so much.

My love for Tenna started off the way it probably started for most people, I found him extremely attractive!! LOL. I soon realized I liked him a lot more than just for how he looks, however. For my whole life, Tv has always been somewhere I've gone to for a break from the world. His story touched my heart as a child who had used TV to cope. I relate to a lot of the struggles He has, and it was nice to see myself in his story. Not only that, but CRT TVs are something I've been into for a LONG time. I even have my own little CRT for my retro game setup. I've always preferred the look and feel of a nice CRT. Oh yeah, and I LOVED gameshows as a kid!!

He is widely headcannoned to have BPD, which is something I struggle with myself. I don't think I've ever felt like a character has depicted my struggle the way Tenna has. His struggles throughout the story just really struck a chord with me. It might be silly, but seeing a character I relate to so much be so widely loved and not depicted as some irrideamable monster makes me so happy.

Aside from him being so comforting and touching my heart so dearly, there's lots more I adore about him! From his physical design to his personality, I can't get enough of the guy. One of my favorite things about him is just how silly he is! He's always making me laugh. Even when I'm feeling down, watching gameplay of him always cheers me up. He's so goofy , and I just adore it.

All this to say, Tenna is a deeply personal character to me. I can't express in words how much he and his story mean to me. Even if it's silly to be so attached to a fictional character, I don't care. I love him so much, and I'm so grateful for him helping me through so many things. Self shipping is very serious and important to me. It is something that reliably keeps me happy, and I'm so grateful for it. It's one of the only ways I've started being a little kinder to myself. It helps me so much with self-love, even if I have a long way to go!

Well, that's about all I have to share for now. It's okay if you think this is silly or even weird, but what is most important is that it makes me very happy :)

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