Hello! Welcome to my little selfship page. This page is for me to talk about my selfship, Magicshow! Tenna is my #1 f/o, and I absolutely adore him. Selfshipping has become a very important part of my life and a wonderful coping mechanism for me. It's changed my life and gotten me through so much. I'm not a good writer whatsoever, so this might be unreadable, but I'd like to share a little about why I love him so much.

At first, I didn't particularly care much for Tenna. I didn't hate him at all; I actually found him very charming and cute. However, it took about a week for him to really grab hold of me the way he did. And boy, he hasn't let go since! As of writing this, we have been together for one year now! And I'm the type of guy who jumps around from interest to interest pretty frequently.

The first seed this silly guy planted in my brain was when he made a Metal Gear Solid reference!! It's one of my favorite games of all time, with Snake and Otacon being my other main F/os. It instantly charmed me and I was so excited. That was the start, but that seed only grew into a full garden at this point.

Admittedly, the second thing that drew me to him is that I just thought he was really hot LOL. I wish it were something less embarrassing, but that's just the truth. What can I say, I've always been into CRTs and tall guys... tall funny CRT guys... It's like he was a piece of cheese on a mousetrap made just for me. His personality, which I'll get into a little more later, definitely contributes to me finding him attractive. I will never forget watching his intro and then just seeing he was going to be 3D for the whole game. It was incredibly charming.

I started to realize my love for Tenna was a lot deeper than just liking how he looks. Tenna and I are similar in a lot of ways. It's a very popular headcanon that he has BPD, which is something I greatly struggle with myself. I've also been exposed to a LOT of divorce in my childhood (lol, you can laugh), so I definitely feel his pain about his family splitting apart. That aspect of his story really touched my heart. I don't think I'd never felt so seen. I was going through a very hard time in my life when I first played Chapter 3. Tenna and his story found me right when I needed it most, and he started to comfort me greatly. Selfshipping quickly became an outlet for me, thinking about Tenna made me want to start to take care of myself and get better. Seeing the way he wanted to live so badly made me want to live again, too. He's gotten me through trauma I've never been able to talk to anyone about. He comforts me when nothing else can. TV was always an escape for me as a child, and now it comes full circle. Funny how stuff like that happens.

Overly serious and sad/sappy stuff aside, I just think his personality is so lovely. He's this huge, powerful ruler, but he's also sensitive and cutesy. He literaly can have a flower bloom from his nose and he twirls around and wiggles and hes just ADORABLE. His little wiggly smile always kills me, he's adorable!! AND FUNNY!! HE'S SO FUNNY AND SILLY!! It's a really interesting contrast with him being a bad boss and short-tempered. I appreciate how he is written to be complicated, he's not a perfect person who has done bad things, but he's not evil either. We are seeing him at his absolute lowest, his worst and most depriate. Poor guy :( I love him, flaws and all/

All this to say, Tenna's really important to me. I wouldn't be here to type this if it weren't for him. My love for him is super serious. All this text can't even express a small fraction of what he means to me and how much i utterly adore him. Genuinely, not a day goes by that I'm not thinking about him. Everything I have that I can theme around him is themed around him, and I even have him tattooed on my arm!! Thank you, Tenna, for helping me get better. For making me want to live again. For being my muse, helping me improve my art and get into new mediums. For all the people I met through loving him.
And thank YOU, dear viewer, for reading!!

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